i don't know how to start this post. i've tried a dozen ways "just came back from...; feeling bloated...; had a great weekend..." but none seems to be apt. no mood to blog perhaps. blogger block. lack of inspirations. *bleahz* it seems weird that i keep up with my blogging during my exam period and now when i can blog, i don't seem to be blogging. can't do the right thing at the right time.

had dinner at prima revolving restaurant today. i love their peking duck. yum yum... its so crowded and noisy today because of the holiday. and we were served so slowly - from being seated to taking orders to serving the food. that 10% service charge of almost $50 is a waste as i don't feel like i'm getting any service. *geez*

the dinner is an early celebration for dad's birthday and mother's day which happens to fall on the same day this year which is next sunday. but next weekend is going to be even more chaotic so we pushed it to this week instead.

i was lamenting it seems odd that ah di is not here (of course dad shrugged it off as we are those 'conservative traditional family', but i can tell he is missing him also lor, eldest son leh, how not to miss when its his first long trip away from home, ns don't count ma) and we were somehow missing him during the dinner and voila, he called. telepathy! =)

dad, mom, sister and brother are going to perth for 3 days during the vesak day weekend to visit him. wish i can go but i gotta work. *sighs* *sighs* *sighs* although its an extremely short trip but still... so i have to be 'gan men gou'. cannot go and must be watch house dog, so sucky can! dad decreed we got to move into his house for that 3 days to look after his fishes, his chickens, my rabbit and his maid. but come to think of it properly, its a good deal in fact. haa haa... i got MAID for 3 days! yay~

so happy tomorrow is still a holiday (finally, i start to appreciate holidays, haven't been as everyday was a holiday to me for the last 9 months). heh... i'm going to enjoy myself thoroughly and work is gonna start proper the day after.

worrying constantly if i can get along with my new colleagues. hope they are easy to get along with. though i'm working under my old branch manager and some old colleagues, but majority are new faces to me. and working environment matters a lot to me.

millions of worries running through my mind now. what if i cannot get along with them? what if they are snobbish? what if they super like to backstab? what if they are not friendly? what if they purposely sabo me? what if......

i just to stay positive. so far all my workplaces are great and most of my ex-colleagues are great. so this place is so not going to be the first that i will hate. yes, it will be a fantastic workplace teeming with fantastic colleagues with fantastic synergy! hmmm, do i sound convincing? =P *fingers crossed* will i jinx it by thinking so positive? sometimes i hate to be so optimisstic.

a bad habit of mine is to think the worst of things so that (a) if it turns out to be bad, i'm mentally prepared or (b) if it turns out to be good, its like a bonus to me. that's why i think i'm quite a pessimist.

well, if any of you happens to be at raffles place, remember to ask me out for lunch ya. =)